Movie: Air Doll

Please forgive me, I finished to write this article in french on ameblo and ... I deleted it -_-"""""".

So I'm a bit tired, I will use google translate, excuse me ... english will be worse than usual T_T



So today, it was cinema with Evy, to see " Air Doll "



*:..。 O ○ ☆ ゚ ・ :,。*:..。 o ○ ☆

Air Doll (空 気 人形, Kuki ningyou) is a Japanese movie realised in 2009 and directed by Hirokazu Koreeda. The film is based on the manga Yoshiie Goda, The Pneumatic Figure of a girl, which was published in the magazine Big Comic original1 specializes in the kind Seinen. The manga tells the story of a doll who is endowed with a soul.
[Source: Wikipedia]


This is not my favorite movie, I found a bit slow.
But not uninteresting.

Nozomi is a doll glonflable established to satisfy the sexual desire of his
owner.
But one day she get the breath life .



She goes for a stroll in the city and discovers the world with the innocence of a child. Paradoxical when we think she is a sexual doll, something no innocent at all.

With life but also and above all a heart, she falls in love with
Junichi working in a DVD rental store. She is hire in the shop.

Junichi makes her to discover the world, even trying to explain the meaning of "life" and "death", a concept a bit abstract for Nozomi, who can not assimilate it.




One day, speaking to Junichi declares to be like her, for him means "empty" for her, "be a doll".
An accident happens, she falls and hurts her hand. front
the eyes of the young man surprised.

He hastens to help by gluing the cut with "Scotch", or to avoid making too many commercials, tape. Lol
Junichi the reinflates, but the valve Nozomi is located on its belly,
cameras filming, the angle of view that may be misconstrued by the boss
store.
He told her she had "something" with Junichi, and having seen with his owner who walked in the park, he takes her for a easy girl.
Nozomi wascreated for "that" and she let the boss to have sex with her.


Having now feelings, Nozomi is hiding in a closet at his
owner to avoid him, it has bought another doll he
also named Nozomi.
Actually the first Nozomi was the ex-girlfriend of the Nozomi doll's owner.

Our beloved doll appears before him and she realized he bought an other girl, she was there only to substitute the ex-gf, the owner would prefer Nozomi become again a doll, a doll because she does not cause problems.
She goes and joins Junichi (san ichi ni ... lol!) In which she said he could ask him what he wants, she is made for that.

A little mixture between a woman who must be ready to all
demands of the man, and the feeling of love or someone is willing to do anything to
someone you love to do anything to please him and keep him/her next to you ... (sorry! My heart is talking to my place> <)



Junichi asks her to deflate her, and he did it several times
on. Inflate, deflate, re-inflate ....
Junichi who blows air at Nozomi, is perhaps the equivalent of
her pleasure, her orgasm to her.

I thought the movie too cute ... Too twisted for a Japanese film.
What follows confirms my idea ... I'll maybe take a break for what is Japanese films and Nippon literature .

Nozomi, always with his idea that Junichi is like her and her good heart, wants to turn him "blowing pleasure" as he has done for her.
She cuts the belly and tries to close with schotch,
but alas , it's not air which escapes, but blood.
Nozomi who wanted to infuse the air had no effect.

I was "shocked" in this scene , the young man
not even try to escape or struggle.

Just like a doll "broken", Nozomi puts Junichi in a plastic bag and
place in the midst of "waste".
She realizes that something different is happening, but she
doesnt understand what the difference between her a doll, and he, a human
flesh and blood.





Nozomi will go to wastes at her turn too.

The film is a reflection of society, especially in big cities.
do we care about the feelings of others ? have we feelings ourselves?
This bit also about the respect of others too.

Have a heart is painful.

One takes a doll because it is less problematic, less suffering ...

It is a sad truth, being "heartless" may be "easier" but in this case we are still human?

"If we had no heart that we would be machines

* ☆ * ☆ ゚ ゜ ゚ * ゚ ゜ ゚ * ☆ * * ☆ ゚ ゜ ゚ * ゚ ゜ ゚ * ☆ * * ☆ ゚ ゜ ゚ * ゚ ゜ ゚ *




I don't though write this kind of thing today , especially since my fit yesterday.

Darling is went to sleep, I feel that the longer it goes ... the less there is contact.
I had to go looking for the tissue box and I think investing in
waterproof makeup

I think , that, now, the words have no more effect anymore. It works 5 seconds I'm good and after , Plop ! " But I remember he said that ... and ... if..."
Despite of what he says Imalways afraid. I would be more of concrete, more acts.
But it's impossible ... For now.
And always the same things back, I try to bury it in
depths of myself, the ghosts come back.

I thought about all cases ... It's painful in all.
Speak no longer sufficient. Even with him.
Till the problems won't be fixed....

It is already difficult for myself, I irritate myself, when I know that's part of the reason that his love for his ex faded, finding himself powerless ... I also have this fear.
I'll take my misfortune patiently ... Until ...

My Daddy loloche just sent me an sms "We dont buy waterproof makeup without a
reason "and ... I calmed down and returned it off again ... Why so easily?" Am I in the end?

It's frustrating not being able to call or go cower in the arms of the one you love to get some comfort when things go wrong.


Here the french version.
With some differences, as usual ^^"

Love-love-love I want your love ~♪

Tonight I've a baby sitting again ^^,
Fortunately I had rest this afternoon.


Tomorrow I will go to cinemo to see "Air Doll" with my fiance Evy :p


And monday 2 movies with my "daughter" Justine.
"Bébés" ( Babies) and Sex & the city II . ( It's justine who wanted this one ... Me I don't know the 1st XD)

Ju' was surprised to see I agreed to spend a Monday to watch movies, foreseeing
only popcorn and cola as lunch lol!
This is not my habit ... But I always liked it!
Moreover, I find it better to enjoy now before being married and
mother XD




Till the july,2nd it's the Cinema week, so the movie is for 3€ instead of 5, 7or 10€ ! XD




I'm back on "Pupe", because of Evy, she was bored lol.
and I saw the friend of my Love made him a strap (?) with his pseudo...
It makes me so sad ...Silly I know but makes me think of pendant I made for him as engagement gift.
( I won't put the photo by respect for he, even she doesn't have for me, and for my Love, and no name but SHE named me in her blog -_-"" *shuts her mouth*
what?! Me I don't like her ?! noo ... I prefer to wait to meet her before to judge XD)
I though I had a good idea, I spent a lot of time to choose a design which could represent him and myself, I asked friends help for the sentences in chinese and japanese, I saved a lot of money too.(T ^ T)



I though I made something unique but ... No.
I'm so desapointed...By myself too. Darling asked her to stop to write "darling" etc on web, she does...I though I could get better ! (ノ_-。)
I try to do efforts but so hard ! Once she even appeared in my "dreams" o_O!
Today he had flyers and like yesterday it was till 10pm but he was back a bit later... Why I started to imagine he was with an other ?o(TωT )

I become something I always hated.
Maybe because of my others bf who were really unfaithful...Maybe it's something which is stayed deeply inside my mind, the unconscious.
Anyway the last drama did not help.^^"

Also, I though about something, he has my pass word to check if everything is ok.
I don't care I've nothing to hide! xD
It's not for himself, he told me, but for others in his job.So he is not a spy. I understand, but...
A friend tried to get informations, not for her but for me...
And her she is a spy ?!
Even when I understand, sometimes I can't agree. *sigh*
Anyway everybody has a different point of view.

I though about the " verity" too, ( I was cleaned up my library and I saw some philosophy books XD).
For some poeple, it's good to lied when it's to protect others or help them.
I agree too, especially in medical cases, some with hope can continue to fight and cure ! If they loose hope...they can give up and no healing.

But I think, in relationships, it's different. ( but of course every cases and relationships are differents)
Even if the verity is hard ... I think it's better than lies.
Lie can creates something worse.
Especially if the other asks the true ,and you dont respect that if you lie, it means we prefer that than lies if we ask, because we can be strong.
It will be hard, but not impossible.
And it's what happened for me .
I'm affraid everytime now ... It makes me sick and tired 。・゚゚・(≧д≦)・゚゚・。.

I needed to write...It won't fix the problems of course, lol.
But I feel me a bit better, to fix the problems ^o^.
( and no need to repeat XXX times for friends XD)

I think often about Saigon at this time, it's there that all started.
I wonder me if i was right to send this first e-mail...
I wonder me if it would be better to erase my memory,to back in the past and maybe never send it . ^^
I wonder me a lot of things, maybe too much lol.

Makes me think about this [Article] of my blog of poems.



I started to make my bow with the fabric ... and I just realize that I forgot all at home ...
* calls her brother to bring the metarial*

Yeah ! The families where I work are all around my building so it's easy if I forgot something.
He was fast but ... I totally forgot to ask him my medicine ;_; !
well ...not matter for the moment ^^".



Ah and a sad news... Little chiken is dead ;_; too weak.


Hmm... Please forgive me for the bad english... more I write worse it is.


( with some little diffrences ^^")

Fashion University Vol.14, Art nails

Today it was the last day of exams at school.
Holidays will come soon~








We still have school till June 30th ... but I think it will be less tiring. hehe.



I also received my 48 nails polish *o* !
I tried immediatly !! >o<



I don't tried the UV machine yet, even if I received the first part of gels ><.
But the résult with this nail polish... Is not so bad.
Why I will destroy my nails ?! XD
It will be for the daily and the false nails for special accasions.
And to work with children + art nails .... hard XD
You must clean after meals, give them the shower etc ... You must wash your hands so often... Not easy.


I'm very tired, I spent 2 weeks a bit hard ^^ and unfortunately even if now I'm more free, darling has a lot of work, still sick ... Not a lot of time together.
And There are some little things,which, annoys me with him.
Not so important but which ruin the rare moments when he replies T_T

I'm looking forward to be at Tokyo in August ...D-36 <3

Fashion University Vol.13 Fashion Design Exam

I did NOTHING the last week end ! Only rest .
It was so good to sleep till 9:00am ! Sleeping... <3>


Big ribbon !!! It will be soooo funny.
I'm sure Darling will love it ! XD (poor Darling his gf becomes "Gyaru-pouf")


Well, today it was the first day of our fashion design exam ...

Subject:
-A mini collection of 4 complete accesorized looks
-8 to 10 products
-One page with personal universe/ambiance/ key words+ en editorial.
-A colour range
-Fabric page + technical explanations+ 2 sample pieces
-strong points
-One or two textile creations ( + variations)
-Flat sketches for the front and back
-a complete collection plan for the summer collection 2010

And of course as everybody at school is on the computer at the same time, the net is super slow, almost impossible to look for infos . -_-"
I started to draw 12 products, now I must include my personal universe on.


Today I come back home ... And I heard squeaks ... OMG !
We have a "poussin" at home ! XD
My mother (who is teacher) has chickens at her school and this one was exclued by his/her mother and sisters/brothers. They hurt him/her. ^^

It's soooo cute !! <3

Fashion University Vol.12 1st exam week : END

[ My sewing Machine wich I love,
We spent so much time together ... XD
13kg .... So hard to come back at home with it by train -_-"]


Awwwwwwwww !!!
I finished the first exam week !
But I'm so ashame -_-"
My dress at the end is so ugly .... I will have a bad mark.;__;


[ The Horror ;_;
The boy front me : aww it's a dress for a porno movie...
So Short ....Sexy nurse huhu ! xDDD]

I went to see the 4th themes of our next test un fashion design exam ...Too bad !
lol

I hope I will be able to make something acceptable .




Today, the pattern making teacher corrected my blouse we made before the personal dress, she was satisfied!! lol
" I see you made efforts for this work ^_^" ....The poor she doesn't see my dress for the exam .... She will die ! * hides *




I also received my UV machine for nails !!
I will be able to make my own art nail for free *o*
no need to paye 40€ or 11000yens hehe !



I watched the DVD which was inside, it explains how to make your nails.
I knew the way, not so good for nails, but to see it ... OMG ! lol
Polish, cut short, acetone.... NO !
You start, but after your nails are so ugly under, you must continue -_-".

At this time I've long and strong nails so I prefer to do it on false nails I will can change and keep longer than art nail on real nails.

Now I'm waiting for gel and other accesorizes I ordered ^^

Fashion University Vol.12 Exams, Job and Love



I finished to cut the pieces of the dress, tomorrow I will sew.
I hope I will finish it soon ><.



This afternoon I went to get girls, but the wednesday, they are in 2 different school.
I go to get the older first.
She shuffled, I was walking front her " Faster kitty ... We must to go to get you sister" I saw her comes back next to me, her hand on her forehead and .... BLOOD ! Everywhere ! >~<
She hurt her forehead on a wall !

I had no tissues ... " Put your jacket on !" xD
Fortunately a woman with her daughter proposed us to come to her appartment to cure the girl.
The blood stoped and we went to get the younger.




She is ok, but it's a bit deep, we tried steri-streap but with hair .. Doesnt work
><.
I will see tomorrow how her parents will fix it ><.


Tomorrow, Darling have his last japanese test, I'm happy, he will can rest a bit( he really need rest >< ) and ...more time for his Fululu x3

Romeo & Juliet Show

I know .... I'm late -_-"

But I clean my computer and I saw, I wrote nothing about the Romeo & Juliet show !

Actually I wanted to see it since I'm 10 years old !
I was so in love with damien Sargue ( Romeo) with his black and long hair... But now ... In 2010 ... SHORT ! T_T * suicide*
Anyway ... It's not a problem ! Fululu is fell in love with the new Mercutio, John Eyzen. Hehe =p



The new song " Avoir 20ans" ( To be 20 years old)



The song " Les rois du monde" ( The kings of the world)



It was a great afternoon with my friend, I got 2 place just fron the stage ... Awwww, one of my best memories ^^ and just after my Birthday .

The costumes were great too, moderne but with the romantic atmosphere, I especially love the Juliet's dress during the Bal *o*.

Fashion University Vol.11 Exams, Jury, Models and GPKoala & BBF adventures

We started our pattern making exam the last Monday.
5 hours per day during 5 days... It's exhausting,
but ...I don't have the worse model dress !

Tomorrow I will start the sleeve, I hope, I will finish it soon and with the fewest mistakes possible. >_<


Construction ...



Half mulin....

Makes me think,the last friday we had the jury for our personal dress project.
It's my friend Evy who was my model ^^.



We played with the " photography Studio" at school. x3






I was model for my friend Xiao Xu too.


(OMG how I'm white ><) About it, at the begining of the year, I met a girl in seconde year, Vicky, very sweet <3.>



I'm recently back on ameblo and I re-discovered icons I made with pixel few months ago.
GPKoala and Baby Fululu... Pixel Version xD.



I will make new adventures soon, I miss it soooo much !
Unfortunately, philosophy lessons are finished to draw it * sighs *
I think ...their friendship will evolve... ~ <3

Fashion University Vol.10 Love and Lolita "life"

It's the end of my school year soon.
Next week, will start mes exams ....
Pattern making => 1week
Fashion Design => 1 week
END => The June 25th

I finished the Child Collection Summer 2010-2011








And my dress ! =D
But ... I'm not totally satisfied...So I will change some things . ^o^

[ I will make other better, but this one was just to see]



Today during my daily Baby Sitting, the younger girl ( 4 years old) made a fit ...
Impossible to undress her up ... Impossible to give her the shower , impossible to put her the pajamas... ok Cold shower ... Not enought ? No sweeties tomorrow and punished in her bedroom.
She cries sometimes but today OMG o_o she wanted to hurt me !
Fululu is stayed calm but she got respect .... Kids nowadays. -_-"

Fortunately the second baby sitting was better, the baby ( almost 2 years old) cried a little bit when his Nanny left home but adorable after ^^


Hard at this time with work lol.
I'm very tired and .... A girl bothers me indirectly ....
She calls MY boyfriend "hubby" "our 4th anniversary" ... and she has a boyfriend ...And she knows that my boyfriend is not single. What does she want ?! o_o
It's so disrespectful for me but especially for her boyfriend ! I'm sad for him.
She speaks more about my bf than his on her blog . -_-"
Ok we all have a bestfriend but ... There are limits.
I'm sure if a girl does the same with HER boyfriend she won't be happy at all.

Sometimes I can't understand poeple ... I'm tired with all. I LOVE my boyfriend, I really want to share my life with him.
Of course I'm still young... But I found someone with who I feel me so good and safe... It's the first time.
After of course, we don't know our future. But it's my current feelings and since almost 3 years now.
I'm happy with him and think I deserve this happiness , to share with him.
We work hard and nobody will ruin that.
I won't give up. She may die. u_u ( French expressions ... How I love ! xp )
I will speak with her face to face.
I don't want a fight ( too pathetic !) just explanations as a civilized girl.
I would like she stop it ... Even by respect for my boyfriend...He is her friend so ... She can respect him more than me, right?


I'm fed up with this kind of action... I'm calm and descreet since I'm young,
Shy and nice with others and some used me... Now stop!
I'm maybe becoming a bitch ... But I don't care ...
I respect others and I get what ? Nothing good.
Nobody has ever seen me fight or really angry ( only once at the beach ... I had a fight with a girl to defending my brother lol.
Rescuers from the beach had to intervene to separate us, there were two men to hold me!)

After what happened with my boyfriend ... I'm stronger. =)
( I'm stronger than yesterday♪ Oh! Britney ~! Lol)
Of course it was very hard ... But it's a life lesson.
Nobody must touch to my family, friends and especially my Love.

And thank you a lot my Future, Daddy Loloche and Old Sister for your support . :)

[ Photo shoot for a Lolita calendar, I was september ]


I was model for a Lolita Fashion show few days ago.
I was the EGL category. There was a Dandy with me ... It was not the idea of the begining but we had de the same colors ! XD








[ With the grou <3 ]



It was my hairstyl for the fashion show ... But unfortunately with rain and wind, out! T_T

Jesus Diamante & Lolita Day

[Alice in Wonderland Collection <3]


I LOVE Jesus Diamante.
The one of my favorite brand with Moi-Même-Moitié, Angelic Pretty, BtSSB, Excentric ...
Yes I'm unfaithful with clothes. It's my sin :p

But I laugh when I see some girls who are in love or buy something especially because it's "THE" brand ... Even if sometimes it's tasteless or doesn't look good on them.

I went to look yesterday the JD web site and ... Horror!
Except the new print with flowers (how I hate JD prints >< )usualy I like the models, especially for shoes ( even if it looks to "luxury prostitute" or "kept woman" lool )
[ Prints ...]

But the most horrible ( for me ) are the "Sabots" ....
At this time it's very fashionable, you can check for Chanel or any shoes store at Paris ... Sabots with hight heels .... When I think ... I bought sabots 2 years ago ...




I was in advance AGAIN ! I loved Dita Von Teese and pin-up look, but impossible to find a " Bibi" ( the mini hat), I wanted mini-crowns and impossible to find too .... and now everywhere even at Claire's -_-" *suicide*
Before my family and friends " It's not fashionable, you're too excentric" ... Yes but NOW it's FASHIONABLE ... Fululu was just in advance , and I **** others. 8D


[ I love tiaras and crowns so much >3<]

[Mini hat and rond Headresses]

[ My fav' Bibi from Spain *o*]



[Bibis from Claires]


At this time I'm in a "Dita" period again, I don't know why XD
I'm so fan of "Bibi" the 50's mini hats >~< onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_vtEl-mvdyHE/TAqjJRA8LtI/AAAAAAAAAXY/cGFkX8XROlY/s1600/10632_1263057818463_1290246636_30802308_1769276_n.jpg">


Today I was the Lolita Day ... But sincerely ... I don't care
I don't saw something changed lol.