Fashion School 2nd year Vol.3 + My live is a novel ._.

ESMOD

Fashion Design:

At this time we are working on a "creative process":

Choose a contemporary object,

do something in 3D showing the subject chooses,

from this thing in 3D, make 5 collages,

from these collages make ink blots to search a volume.

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Fortunately I finished everything before to go to Baby sitting tonigh.

Tmr, I will start the 10 fashion models from these 5 ink blots.

I was bored to do this work, the aim was to learn how to create something new thanks to a creative process ...Usefull if you've no idea.

But during my 2 last years in high school, I had art lessons, so I learnt this method.Geeze ...

Anyway ... I finised with a Crinoline and Corset silhouette... As usual ._.

Pattern Making:

Woman Hewer.

I'm happy , for once it's not too much horrible.

But, the collar and the jacket are not enough large -_-"

Tmr we will start the " hewer collar" .... I hope I will succeed.

"Love", "Glory" and "Beauty"

Well, last monday I saw a terrible message from a friend on Facebook: " leave this motherfucker, I'm worried for you" me : " whUt ? o_O * going to see ... OMG SHOCKED!* "

Ok panic.

What's happen again ... I sent immediatly an e-mail ... Nothing.

I'm was too sick, so second mail, less nice:

OK ... " Who are you" , are you joking ? " fansite? which fansite?", you want my hand in your face ? -_-"

He has my ADDRESS, he sent me flyers often for paris via the FRENCH FANSITE and " who are you - which fansite" ??????

FUCK !

Of course ... he didn't answered more.

Especially about "how do you know" and " Did you blocked my bf the day I left Japan to avoid him to come to say me good bye"

Why ? I've a guess: because 1: he knows but wants to make troubles and can't avoid the chinese and german are only friends and not gf ... Of course I noticed he said " Girl-Friend" and not " Girlfriend" but ... he DOES know that ME I was not a friend !

What he is looking for ?

He wants to ruin my relationship ? Is not enough hard ?

Ok darling is not an angel, but during my stay he was serious and went to work on music EVERYDAY !

Artists must be concentred and work, I totally agree.

But it's a reason to obstructing them to have a private life.

Yes ... I will maybe have problems with this post, but I should shut my mouth when someone doesn't respect the law ?

If I remember good ...The one who wants his singer works more ... Has himself a girlfriend, that's why his work is bad ? I don't think so.

If somebody can't be relax sometimes, think about others things than work, what is it ?

A hen ... In cage, laying all the time. You never noticed these one lived less that the hens were free in the pastures ? ( Ok it's a bit cliche lol)

Stress and preassure are not good for health, it's not en easy job.

Fans are always waiting and judge your work, some can have different tastes so " Bad album this time !" Ok ...They judge what you're doing ...Etc.

And with all that, you can't even have somebody to love ?

You've no right to have somebody to speak about problems, feelings, fears...

Nobody who will blindly support you only because she/he loves you.

I'm laughing when I saw people who wants to become a "star" or girls who want to date with "artists" or "J-rocker" only because "it's sooo cool !! So japan-fashion! So IN ! So great to be "famous" on web.

You want to live far away of the person you love ?

You want to see rumors about him/her on the web?

You want to see fans judge him/her, his/her work, without to knowing anything ?

You want to see yaoi ( yuri) or porn fan-fiction about him/her?

You want to meet sympatic girls who finally said " I want him as the father of my children, he makes me wet !" because they only think you're a fan girl like them ?

You want to hide this relationship, when your other friends show their photos with their love, because yours is a public person and you can be the "biatch" or not good for his/her image, if fans know he/she in not single they will stop to be fan of the group .

Well ... THIS LIFE IS FOR YOU =D !!!

This is the sad reality, they are fans enough stupid to let down a group, because his/her favorite aritist is not single.

For me, they are not fans. They are only stupid.

Of course, I'm not saying fans must stop it, when I was younger I was a fan girl too ( that's why ...I wonder ... How I can be so jaded now ? -_-" shit !) But ... I realize , I never fantasized on artists ... o_o.

I wrote fanfic with friends yes, when I was younger but not more ._., well we don't mind =_=.

I just say , sometimes, it' not really pleasant. It's not always a dream.

Love is not easy, but in this case it's harder.

So I don't need a f-ing bulldog to make it harder.

I must thanks people who helped me and answered me about a the past, I know it's not something easy or pleasant sometimes so thank again,

and the ones who gave me their advices and supported me. <3

And I'm sorry for the ones who admired the bulldog and have been disappointed.

To conclude, I'm still with him. I do love him.

You can think I'm silly, I'm too much naive.

I'm, maybe.

But I HATE people who publish this kind of thing about ME !

They don't have the courage to come to speak with me ?

The bulldog wanted me to see it by myself?

He thought I will shut my mouth, break up without asking explanations?

You're too much stupid then.

If you want something next time, come directly.

I never thought this kind of thing could happen one day.
For me it is only in the "fires of love" or novels.
I do not pretend to have known, I do not want problems, I just want to love in peace.
So why is this happening to me?

You are outside all.

♪ Mother looking at me

Tell me what do you see?

Yes, I've lost my mind♪